Let's Be Real

I, AnEveryDayGirl, lost my mother to breast cancer November 28th, 2008. Basically, what people do not understand is when a single parent dies you do not just loose a parent, you loose the life you lived. I left my small little town of Waterloo, all my friends, my boyfriend, my school, my house, my community, to integrate to the big city of Toronto where i got lost. I'm not going to get into much about my life, but a year and a half later I continue to deal with the affects of losing my mother. It was just the two of us. She was my life. She is my role model. I watched her fight a strong battle against a vigorous disease, which sadly got the best of her and of me. It stole three and a half years of my childhood. I know I should be angry at the disease but I'm not. I'm mad at my mother. I'm mad for her leaving me to journey through life alone. For not taking care of me. For forcing me to grow up so quickly. I know it's not her fault, but she wasn't hear for the most important parts of my life. She never gets to see me grow up. I have to now go through life without my mother and she doesn't even contact or give me a sign that she watches over me. My mom was my everything. She taught me so many valuable lessons which I'll carry on with me for the rest of my life, but that's all I'll have. Her lessons, her wishes for me, my memories of her. Life's not the same anymore. I live in a new city, with new friends, a new family, a new school. I live a life now where I have no remainders of a life i lived for 13 years. Everyday i wonder what my life would be like if she lived. I wonder who'd i be given the chance. Where I'd be in life right now, if she was still in my life. Though, without watching my mom die I'd never have achieved the inner strength I have to achieve greatness. To make something of myself. Of my life.

A quote from my mother, Denise Ducharme:
"Remember, who cares what the colour of the bridge is. Just enjoy the journey and I'll see you on the other side."
-Denise Ann Ducharme